Published Thursday December 9th, 2004

I experienced something I have not experienced in a long time last night as I went to bed at around 04.00. A broad series of thoughts on my mind; thoughts wrapped in my grandfather (Sommer), thoughts of going back to California, thoughts about my future, thoughts of where I might one day settle, thoughts of happiness and sadness. As the evening progressed I managed to drag myself further and further, deeper into a little mood swing with a 12-month record low.

As I slipped into bed I thought about Switzerland, about Europe, and about leaving. I thought about my grandfather who recently turned 80 and my great grandmother. I don